An Ordinary Summer Night

Even though it says so... Like every night, it is painful.

The stars are very bright tonight... A stream of happiness fills my heart, but vanished in an instant. In it's place, hollow despair.

Despair...

My failures...

I wish I could escape these chains binding me. My wings have been torn off, and I don't think that they'll ever grow again...

I want to breakaway, I want to run, fly away. This is not my place, and yet, God has placed me here. An oddball. Me, just me alone. Of course, no one would understand me. I couldn't talk to anyone about my passion. 

Why?

Why....can't I get what I want...

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I love the stars and all, and yes, they're my best-best friend, but looking at them somehow makes me feel...useless. I have no idea why... maybe I was reminded about how our bodies were made from stardust? I haven't a clue..

In nights like these, I think of you... Unconsciously, you come to my mind when I'm idle. I hate it. 

We're really similar you know... That's probably why...

I love you... oh so much.

Even till now, even when we're apart, even when I know...

Another star's twinkling ever so brightly in your heart.

Yeah, I know. I'm a masochist.

But I can't help it.

God, I really really love you. I can't stand seeing you like this, but who am I? I can't do a thing...

I love looking at you from afar...

I really wish your happiness, but somehow, I'm getting selfish. I really want you to myself. 

Yeah, I'm a sinful person.

Maybe loving you is another sin of mine.

I don't deserve this happiness.

I deserve sorrow, despair.

All the cheerfulness, it's a lie.

A LIE.

USO DA. USO DA. USO. USO USO.

Kiriha, on the verge of tears.