Seolah dia bagian dari diriku, aku kehilangan topanganku. Aku kehilangan self-esteemku.
Seolah jiwaku hanya tinggal separuh.
Even though I weren't supposed to depend on you, it still feels like... I couldn't do anything without you.
I couldn't even smile, even if now I vowed to myself to trust no one. To do things by myself.
Everything was so forced.
I'm now enduring this all alone...
...no, it has just returned to the way things used to be before...
I wished to be alone, so... this is for the best.
One thing I want to confess, though...
I'm sorry, I couldn't feel happy for you. Even now, I consider you as a rival.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't feel happy for you. All of those were my fake smiles. All a mask, a facade to fool the world around me.
I couldn't cheer you up, I couldn't help you with anything. I couldn't become your guardian angel... I'm sorry.

...kimi wa daiji na hito desu.
Sekai de ichiban no takaramono. Sekai de ichiban taisetsu na mono.

Even now, I still think to myself,
"Is she the one?"
Even now, I still continue to wonder,
"Is she the target of your shy-yet-passionate gaze?"
Even now, I still doubt myself,
"Am I suited enough for you?"
Even now, my heart still screams,
"It's probably her! You have no chance!"
...and with that, I lost all self esteem.
You both have similarities that I don't have; you both share the same passion that I couldn't even keep up. Here I am, left out all alone, able to only gaze at your slowly disappearing figure.
No, even I'm forbidden to just sneak a peek at you.
All of these are painful, and yet, all I could do is just secretly admire you. Is that even allowed? It's probably a sin though...
Even with my almost-tattered-to-pieces heart, I still pray,
"May he notice my feelings, and return them to me someday...."

Despair and Love

It hurts to not know
Am I the one?
Is it me? Or is it someone else?
My heart aches, unable to hold back anymore
What do all those heavy sighs from you mean?
I just wanna know,
Are those melodies directed to me?
Until now, I have been suffocated by the darkness.
Even now, the water continues to pour in my lungs, suffocating me.
I need you! Let me stare at your back for a little while longer,
Let me feel your presence for a little while longer,
Let these feelings...reach you, before I finally depart from this ephemeral dream...